Viva la Mexico!!!!!!!

I know if your reading this it seems very out of no where considering i haven't updated in a good while,but anyway right now i'm just sitting at my house on my new lap top since my old one...............well lets just say got borrowed for an extended period of time by someone who we'll not mention.

So anyway let's see Back down in the bay now been back for about a month just really layin low though trying to still get over and move with my life and forget about the one person who i ever truely loved only to have them stab me in the back and betray my love and trust. Lets see really now all i do is work and and stay home try to go out every now and then,not much really to do down here. I still love and think about her everyday and i shouldn't but i do and it kills me feeling the way i do and knowing i shouldn't i hate it so much i wish i could be dead inside and not feel anything because there are better people out there for me and i know it but for some reason that  "devil "has a hold on me that won't let go no matter how hard i try to get away. i guess it's hard to forget about someone you spent almost everyday with for 3 years. and thats why i'm writting this because i want to forget about her and don't know what to do and have no realease except for this journal and so i'm pouring out to you the people who might actually read this and hope someone might have so good advise for me.

Hey everyone I know I haven't put a real update on here in a while but i figured it be a good time to that is if anyone even reads this thing anymore, but oh well I'm doing fine just kinda layin low and wondering around from here to there don't know where i'll end up next it's kinda fun actually, but eventually i know i'm going to have to settle down some where maybe i'll go back to Bay St. Louis I don't know all i know is i want out of Florida. Oh yeah I put some lyrics to one of my favorite songs up here just kinda fit the mood i was in.  The last verse really gets me.


Evensblues
Cold

Hello, I'm your martyr, will you be my gangster
can you feel my trigger hand, moving further down your back
when you hide, hide inside that body
but just remember that when I touch you
the more you shake, the more you give away

cold, but I'm still here, blind, ‘cause I'm so blind, say never
we're far from comfortable this time
cold, now we're so cold, mine, and you're not mine, say never
we’re far from obvious this time

wait, another minute here, time will kill us after all
now can you feel its second hand wrapped around your neck
so fall into my eyes and fall into my lies
but don’t you forget
the more you turn away, the more I want you to stay

cold, but I'm still here, blind, ‘cause I'm so blind, say never
we're far from comfortable this time
cold, now we're so cold, mine, and you're not mine, say never
we’re far from obvious this time

you’re so endearing, you’re so beautiful,
well I don’t look like they do, and I don’t love like they do
but I don’t hate like they do
am I ever on your mind?

cold, but I'm still here, blind, ‘cause I'm so blind, say never
we're far from comfortable this time
cold, now we're so cold, mine, and you're not mine, say never
we’re far from obvious this time

cold, you broke me from the very first night
I'd love you ‘til the day that I die
we're far too comfortable this time
cold, I loved you from the very first night
you broke me ‘til the day that I die
I'm far too obvious this time

hey found a clip and website about Katrina's affect on  NO and the MS Gulfcoast check it out.
http://www.stormadventures.com/programs.htm# 
 
When u get there click on Sample 1 and 2

     Just a Really cool Pic of the Flag.


My First Tag (Something I learned in Jail)

Was listening to this CD and thuoght about this song thought it was kinda funny. Well if you get ther symbolism then I guess it is.

2pac
Out on Bail

Oh, I posted bail?
I'm out this motherfucker?
I can go?
Oh, fuck y'all eh, fuck the judge
fuck the motherfuckin' district attourney and the prosecutor (fuck you!)
and fuck you motherfuckers in the jury box (fuck you!)
fuck all y'all
cause I'm out on motherfuckin' bail
y'all ain't never gonna see me in this motherfucker again
drop that shit em!
let these old punk ass bitches know how we runnin' this shit
niggaz ain't going back to court you stank ass bitches

Im stuck in jail the DA's tryin' to burn me
I'd be out on bail if I had a good attorney
Wanna label me a criminal and cuff me up
Got a pocket full of money so they rough me up
I ain't trippin' in the county and I'm mad as fuck
Got a record so they put me with the baddest bunch
Everybody wanna talk cause I'm rappin'
They askin' me what happened
Is it true you did a flick with Janet Jackson
I can't sleep they takin' polaroids
And I'm tryna to use the phone but they makin' noise
Man I wish I had my glock cause its major
I'm makin' shanks out the plastics in razors
These motherfuckers won't leave me alone thats my word
Bout to turn a violation to a motherfuckin' murder
I'm makin' collect calls to my old bitches
Send mo pictures and make me some more riches
To all the suckers on the block talkin' shit while I was locked up
Be prepared to get socked up
Cause the game is deep and the fame is brief
And you bullshittin' bitches ain't changin' me
I came straight up out the gutta I was saved from hell
And I'm a thug I was raised in jail
Now I'm out on bail

Out on Bail (You know what fuckin' time it is)
ThugLife will never fail (I'm out on bail)
Thuglife niggaz (I'm going straight to 50,000 biatch!!!)
Thuglife niggaz (I'm out on bail)
Out on Bail (Hey, hand me some motherfuckin' Colt 40's from the fridge nigga)
ThugLife will never fail (Cause I'm out on bail)
Thuglife niggaz (Hey, pass me my motherfuckin' Rolex)
Thuglife niggaz (Yes bitch that's a Presidential)

Stuck in jail, I'm mad as a bitch
I'd be out on bail if it wasn't for the snitch
Runnin' wild thru the streets like i'm loco
And fuck the punk police and they chokeholds
I got no love in my heart cause i'm heartless
Mobbin' in the park after dark wanna start shit
Rippin' up the scene as a teen i was at it (hey)
And sellin' products to the addicts cause they gotta have it
I was a well-known thug and i gotta lotta love
Hangin out with the OG's shootin' up the clubs
And mama told me don't hang with the homies
But they got me if they need me then it's on G
Got me sittin' in the cell a five by seven
Will I finally get to go to ghetto heaven
Got my bitches on the outside writin' me letters
And they tell me they love me and the shit ull get better
I don't believe her cause i just got the news on the wire
Take it how you want it but your bitch is on fire
I gotta be a player so I stay strong
cause I know that I won't be away long
and when I finally do hit the fuckin' streets I'ma handle this
A thug nigga gettin' scandalous
I'm on bail

Out on Bail
ThugLife (see) will never fail (Out on bail - biatch!)
Thuglife niggaz (You know what time it is)
Thuglife niggaz (I'm out on bail)
Out on Bail (Y'all don't need to know about...)
ThugLife will never fail (You know, Out on bail)
Thuglife niggaz (Y'all Blow that shit - Get me up out this)
Thuglife niggaz (Yo, EM!!! Get me up out of this motherfucker man!)
Out on Bail (These motherfuckers are harrasing me and that ain't cool)
^ something not quite right here either
(chorus continues)

(???)

I'm out on bail
I'll see ya motherfuckers at the next show, and by the way, where is my bitch?
It's that famous shit, you know?
Real thug shit
Real live thug shit, genuine, you know what I'm sayin'
I wouldn't waste your motherfuckin' time with no bullshit baby
Trust me, It's that real shit
I'm talkin' about that shit you never tell your grandkids about, you know?
I ran with a thug nigga, believe that
This my motherfuckin' nigga Em on dem motherfuckin' boards in case your wonderin'
We doin' this shit hell motherfuckin' yeah
An ounze of that shit sittin' in your motherfuckin' lac
Now press rewind nigga

Well First of all let me just say I'm glad to be back on LiveJournal haven't updated in what seems like forever,but there have been certain reasons behind that which this will explain in full and to be honest there might be some people out there who might not like what i'm about to say and except it as the truth but you know what? Oh well it needs to be said. 
       


To start as most of you know last year after Hurricane Katrina me and green_ied_devil moved to Orlando,Fl and had got a Studio Apartment together in October of 2005 which ended up being mistake number one as you'll find out. So anyway things were going really well, I mean we had gotten our lives back to some degree of normal after such a Disaster.  So lets fast forward to December 2005 had a pretty descent birthday and Christmas except there was one little catch I wasn't the only man in green_ied_devil's life see come to find out she had started dating this guy (who shall remain nameless) she worked with and was seeing me at the same time, but i didn't know about him till February of 2006 I mean I had suspicion but nothing really to go on until one night I came back from the store and walked in on them in the apartment and well let's just say that didn't end up pretty at least for him it didn't.

Well as time was winding down for me to go to basic for the Marines she decided that she didn't want to be with him anymore and told me they were broken up later to be determined was a lie. Then we started to rebuild our relationship and we had it planned out that when I got out of Basic and got a permanent Station she was going to come up and live with me when she finished up school, well that's what she told she wanted to do.  So now were in March of 2006 and on March 17,2006 my whole life changed forever. See this is were you all find out why i've been absent from LJ for so long, Because that's the day I got arrested according to Orlando Police for Sexual Battery aka(Rape) and False Imprionment. WHICH LET ME MAKE CLEAR I DID NOT DO!  See green_ied_devil LIED to get me out of the picture to be with the other guy which is really FUCKED UP how she went about it. But I guess she held me and him fighting against me, the real kicker is I later found out on 3-16-06 at 
10:00 pm  She had sex with him, which was the night before.


So anyway fast forward I get arrested do 5 months in county jail, for nothing because she doesn't show up to court so case dismissed. and now i'm here trying to salvage the remains of my life but it's ok beacuse i've got better things ahead of me you all will see. Trust me you won't believe were I end up next. well thats it all out there on the line if you have an oppinion you know what to do.

Artist: Hinder Album: Extreme Behavior Year: 2005 Title: How Long

Why'd you go and break what's already broken
I try to take a breath but I'm already choking
How long till this goes away
I try to remember to forget you
But I break down every time I do
It's left me less than zero
Beat down and bruised
I can't see him with you
Why'd you go and break what's already broken
I try to take a breath but I'm already choking
Cause everywhere I look I can see how you hold him
How long till this goes away

I can't seem to get my heart over you
Cause you creep into everything I do
And now I'm dying to know
How he touches you
I can't see him with you
Why'd you go and break what's already broken
I try to take a breath but I'm already choking
Cause everywhere I look I can see how you hold him
How long till this goes away
How long till this goes away
She said she wants to be friends
I took a big step back
She said
She said
She said she's sorry
With one finger
I said fuck that

I can tell you're lying when your lips move
Cause of one lie it's not me it's you
It's left me less than zero
Beat down and bruised
I can't see him with you
Why'd you go and break what's already broken
I try to take a breath but I'm already choking
Cause everywhere I look I can see how you hold him
How long till this goes away
Why'd you go and break what's already broken
I try to take a breath but I'm already choking
Cause everywhere I look I can see how you hold him
How long till this goes away
How long till this goes away

She said she wants to be friends
I took a big step back
She said
She said
She said she's sorry
With one finger
With one finger
I said fuck that

so whats up not much here just sitting in the computer lab at the community college down the street had to get online keep up with the world, getting a second job at sears in the hardware dept. sucks being down here away from friends and family but slowly i guess it's starting to feel like home got a new cell since my old one was long distance now that i'm in floida if anyone wants to call me it's 407-641-2006 well just wanted to keep in touch and say hey and let anyone who cares know what i've been up to.

lj user="cotageboobyhead">'s Halloween party:

ampherz dressed as Woodrow Wilson.
angelcurles dressed as a junior internet intern, though it looked more like a Babcock-Rivas Real Estate employee.
digital_tea didn't dress up, spoilsport.
dr_dogg dressed as Warren G. Harding.
gotenssj3 dressed as the Archbishop of Freegran.
green_ied_devil dressed as Mary-Kate Olsen with her very own conjoined Ashley.
howlandowl dressed as a bet.
iluvcheese1216 dressed as something stiff, but what, specifically, you can't tell.
iluvpatrick dressed as the love child of Ray Bourque and Monica Lewinsky.
jazzybeans dressed as a disturbing self-made character called "Fluffy Lizardtushie".
jonathandavisjr dressed as Optimus Prime.
joyce4925 dressed as a Amiga Guru Meditation Error.
kindras didn't even show up and doesn't get any candy.
lil_devil66 dressed as the spirit of their dead grandmother Nina.
mellovesjesse dressed as the President of Togo.
morphine300mg dressed as a new superhero: Emerald Torch.
outlaw23 dressed as your mother.
passions_luvr dressed as a character from "Twelve Monkeys".
patuniabritches dressed as a eagle.
satansboyfriend dressed as a Maho, Laughlin & Dockery Technology, Corp. employee.
secretaznman04 dressed as a damned vampire.
shadowsndarknss dressed as a wholesale ambition.
skitzopyrochick dressed as a penguin.
sponky dressed as a new member of the Wu-Tang Clan, Bitter Demon.
tara_3 dressed as a broker.

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Hey, everyone who still reads this or wants to either way just thought i'd write to keep in touch and let everyone know i'm safe left Mississippi about two in a half weeks ago and i'm currently living in Orlando and wil be staying here everything i had in Bay St.Louis is gone got 16 feet of water in my house which sucks currently working as Disney World and I signed up for th MARINES and will leave march,2006 for boot camp don't know why i really did spur of the moment kind of thing really but anyway thats what i've ben up to in a nutshell just want to say miss all my friends you know who you are well going to try and keep up with this thing more often leave a comment let me know what everyones been up to later.

So i finally have a day today and there are a few things i have to do mostly important have 2 to do things but fun in the afternoon might go to the beach don't really know? Lets see got a raise at work so thats cool woooooo! Since as most of you know i'm not in school anymore i think i'll have to do something that my fellow class mates will still remember me for but what to do? i have a few ideas if anyone else has a way for me to leave my impression on the class of 05 let me know. well it's late and i'm tired goodnight.

Seems lately all i ever do is work, it really sucks have really gay days off Sunday and Tuesday not much 2 do on those days so who knows, work wasn't that bad but long 10 hours today and10 yesterday  saw howlandowl  at work talked to her for a minute and shadowsndarknss and angelcurles but we were busy so couldn't really talk to them long. I want my journal to start to mean something have purpose to my updates but the thing is last time i put the important deep stuff out there on my journal a bunch of shit got started so don't know what to do i guess only time will tell, lately i've been doing a lot of thinking about the past and wondering why i still hold certain feelings with me that i thought i had let go, well to answer my own question i guess it's cause i never really delt with the issues the way i wanted to. well it's late and i got work tomorrow so night everyone.

not much to say really, just wanted to say hey i guess later.

So i finally deside to update after god knows how long, but only to say where do you run when you have no where esle to go?

I don't get people complain i don't update ever then when i do no one reads it and comments.

Hey, everyone whats been up , I know haven't updated in a really long time or at least had a descent update but anyway, lets see where to really start.......... School had to kinda quit cause i'm moving up to the Kiln so i'd be out of the area, then lets see um work well cause of problems at home i'm on 30 day sapatical or however you spell it. been hanging out with friends a lot keeping me busy miss a lot of people at school i don't see anymore :( lets see what else cars finally being worked on so thats good.... been fealing like i'm destined to be alone on the whole romantic find someone to spend your life with level. I mean the are moments that i think i might have someone but then i don't so who knows. Well like i said earlier moving up to the kiln maybe well at least my MOM is but i'm getting my own place with some people i work with two of my friends Staci and Danielle were going to be moving in together within the next 2 months or so, so no more of my stupid mom YEY. well know it's late but just thought i'd keep everyone updated on what i've been up to so if anyone wants to hang out sometime just talk to bs leave a comment or give me a call at 493-4203 well later everyone.

i know i haven't been updating lately but been really busy over break and just going through a lot of shit well talk to ya'll later just wanted everyone to know i'm still alive